Hello there, life.
Today I’ve decided to just write without knowing where my fingers on the keyboard will take me. Also exempting myself from language rules if below there will be any or if there were already. Thoughts that I want to record for the future. Moments in my life although in words that I will look back on with fondness. I hope you allow me to reflect on those things in my own life that I really need to put in writing to keep hold of them more tight.
We’ve been very good friends for 25 years now – a worthwhile friendship with a fair share of ups and downs and in between. Babyhood was the I-couldn’t-barely-recall-to-mind-stretch-but-I-am-familiar-that-love-was-all-around-me. Childhood was pretty much of sunshine, rain and rainbow bliss. Teen hood was an odyssey of depths to self-discovery and self-worth. Adulthood was slash is slash will be going out into the world and making mark. I am currently a 5th year learner in the University of Life (BS Adulthood) and halfway through it already. But it is just on my 3rd year that I had a glimpse of this stage just because profession came into being wherein I said hi world, I am all ready regardless. And the next years gave me the full-blown. Gradually as each day passes. I will skip my rambling for the first two years yet don’t ever get me wrong that it is not vital to me because without those years a piece of my existence is gone missing. Year 3: Career checked. Closest friends checked. Family checked. Fur bubby checked. Significant other checked. Wants and needs on the side checked. Then came passion on the last quarter of the said year. Checked, checked, checked. I left home that year because I landed the job that I had in mind when I entered university and that I had been meaning to get on right after I graduated from the academic world. As I embarked on this journey, opportunity and support came hand in hand for which I am always blessed as well as grateful for. However, let’s not forget about sacrifices in much extent had also been made with the faith that this point will serve its purpose in God’s own time. I was living in the infamous words of Julia Child, “Find something you’re passionate about and keep tremendously interested in it.” I had a good pay occupation. I saw the world before my very eyes. I made and kept friends across the globe. I had a life on my own and became more aware of the person that I am and I can still be. I recognized further the value of home and its people. I look back because I owe everything to these two even if life allowed me to come this far. Year 4: Whatever I’ve got during year 3, I still have it all even more. I was the happiest. And at the same time extremely challenged. Basically because one part of it came crashing down little by little in a heartache and falsification of emotions. I tried to save it but life never allowed me to have it any longer. My way wasn’t His way for me was my assertion. It was most definitely. Sleeping one night that I thought I had it all laid in front of me and waking up one morning that I deserve something greater than the life I had in my mind. I was arguing with you for quite some time but when I had enough crazy, life hit my hard head rock bottom. Then I gathered my senses and realized the purpose and meaning of it. I felt capable and familiar because of this life experience, and I can use the learnings in my yet to come conquests. During the ordeal, I was completely blind sided with the notion that the goodness of life never abandoned me all along because the gift came in a flash without a single level of warning. And as the saying goes, “Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” Well, I say even the best. The best that I most deserve. Love lost and love found me at the same time. It occurred when I least expected it and it did somehow. I, myself, cannot even begin to understand that it took place in the most unusual and complicated way possible but you, life, unfolded and untangled every unknown piece that I had it all figured out day after day and eventually, everything made sense. I even have so much to say about this year yet I’d rather not. I’d take that to my advantage already. Nonetheless, I never forget to thank you for the prompt wake up call and the valuable lessons about love that I gained because of it and that I will hold onto for dear life. Year 5: Riding the waves of life. This current road helps me to embrace the unexpected, renews my faith in the world and broadens my mind. Life and the Big Fella made me believe in the good that could come my way after the feelings of pain from my past. I waited patiently and prayed fervently every day for the grand love and a lifetime of satisfaction. Little did I know, it’s within and around me already. I just have to do some “re-” for me to become mindful of it all. Now… It has been a life I didn’t know I could possibly live. Exposing me to endless, inexplicable, dynamic and diverse beauty of the planet and its race. The experiences of life continue to mold me. The Author gave me an unearthed amount of strength to withstand all the winds. I’ve been the compilation of the people I’ve met, places I’ve been and whatever else falls between the cracks. I am the me who isn’t afraid to show all of my entirety to the world. And as for the matters of the heart, I’d rather keep it to myself at this time. I am proud to share this kind of love to a beautiful soul. When it is all set, I will share this piece of me. The man and his love for me manifest surprises and adventures reminding me always of what I am worthy of and what I ought to have in the face of a thousand miles and different time zones and other circumstances that fall between us. My faith would like to rely that he is the person God has set aside for me with a love that can bear anything and everything it throws at us. I claim it, I ask for that from God. I don’t care how long it would take for us to be together one day… All I know a love like that is worth the wait.
To wrap it up, I am equally excited about the prospects of the future and I am pleased with my current situations. I am happy.
With all my love,